Well, I did it.
Dec. 22nd, 2004 10:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
samaritan1975
Funny, it seems so much more ominous having typed that out (the subject, I mean), than when I said it to myself in my head.
What I did was send my request for official college transcripts to be sent to Bellevue University so that I can apply for their online MBA program. It may not seem like much, but that's me breaking down the walls of my biggest weakness- that is to say, I have all the grandiose plans and yet never follow through. 'Grandiose' is probably taking it too far, of course, but I needed to put an adjective in there. If I think of something else, I'll let you know.
See, I'll come up with an idea- most commonly about what direction I want to take in my professional life, but these ideas run the gamut of all my interests, really- and think myself into inaction. That sounds silly, but it's true. The most difficult obstacle to my own personal growth is me.
I've wanted to be a firefighter (and, in truth, I still do- though I'll be volunteering at some point. May go the EMT route. Much safer, and I don't want my future family worrying about The Call).
I want to write, but it seems like when I'm confronted with the paper, I can't put my thoughts down- like they picked that moment to take a lunch break.
I want to learn to speak another language; I feel oddly ignorant only being able to think in one language- Chinese and/or Arabic. That latter one was in the face of my reserve duty, but you never know- might come in handy one day. The former? Well... I've always felt that the Chinese had very poetic ways of describing virtually everything (especially in folklore, which is where my interest comes from).
I want to teach martial arts- maybe not run a school, but become skilled enough to pass on knowledge to another; besides which, I miss martial arts. I felt a certain freedom- a full acknowledgement of my body with all it's strengths and limitations- when I was practicing.
Then I go on to more mundane things- I want to write an RPG. I want to start up a campaign with my gaming group that will run for more than a few months, and play more of the games that have been collecting dust on my shelf. I want to build my own PC. I want to run in a marathon.
This all seems pretty self-centric, so I should temper it with this: Most of all, I want to be able to provide a comfortable living for my wife and future children. Which brings me back to school- I've learned that a bachelor's just won't get me to wherever it is I'm going. So, grad school is the next logical step. I wasted nearly 5 years trying to become a professional firefighter, that I lost sight of the real goal- being a wonderful husband and father.
All these other things are just ways of being a better Jon.
What I did was send my request for official college transcripts to be sent to Bellevue University so that I can apply for their online MBA program. It may not seem like much, but that's me breaking down the walls of my biggest weakness- that is to say, I have all the grandiose plans and yet never follow through. 'Grandiose' is probably taking it too far, of course, but I needed to put an adjective in there. If I think of something else, I'll let you know.
See, I'll come up with an idea- most commonly about what direction I want to take in my professional life, but these ideas run the gamut of all my interests, really- and think myself into inaction. That sounds silly, but it's true. The most difficult obstacle to my own personal growth is me.
I've wanted to be a firefighter (and, in truth, I still do- though I'll be volunteering at some point. May go the EMT route. Much safer, and I don't want my future family worrying about The Call).
I want to write, but it seems like when I'm confronted with the paper, I can't put my thoughts down- like they picked that moment to take a lunch break.
I want to learn to speak another language; I feel oddly ignorant only being able to think in one language- Chinese and/or Arabic. That latter one was in the face of my reserve duty, but you never know- might come in handy one day. The former? Well... I've always felt that the Chinese had very poetic ways of describing virtually everything (especially in folklore, which is where my interest comes from).
I want to teach martial arts- maybe not run a school, but become skilled enough to pass on knowledge to another; besides which, I miss martial arts. I felt a certain freedom- a full acknowledgement of my body with all it's strengths and limitations- when I was practicing.
Then I go on to more mundane things- I want to write an RPG. I want to start up a campaign with my gaming group that will run for more than a few months, and play more of the games that have been collecting dust on my shelf. I want to build my own PC. I want to run in a marathon.
This all seems pretty self-centric, so I should temper it with this: Most of all, I want to be able to provide a comfortable living for my wife and future children. Which brings me back to school- I've learned that a bachelor's just won't get me to wherever it is I'm going. So, grad school is the next logical step. I wasted nearly 5 years trying to become a professional firefighter, that I lost sight of the real goal- being a wonderful husband and father.
All these other things are just ways of being a better Jon.
